mommy's letter

I couldn't get this to load as a slideshow, but it was playing with the song "Dancing with the Angels" by Monk and Neagle. That's truly how I picture her though. She never got to wear a pretty dress until she died, and now I can imagine her dancing with the angels in the prettiest pink dress I could find. It blessed me, and I'm sure it will bless you too. If you go to this website in a different window and play the song, you should be able to push play and come back to this window to read the letter. Sorry I couldn't get the real thing to load, but this should give you the general idea of how it played at her service.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=22x2mR1WU1w

My sweet girl.

You were the most amazing thing to have come and gone from my life. It happened so quickly; that I sometimes think it couldn’t have been true. That you could be gone from this life so quickly yet left a mark that traveled so far and wide.
From the beginning of your little life, you were changing the way people saw God. You gave people a reason to pray more and allowed them to see just how faithful our Savior is. The day you were born I witnessed a miracle, and in the 84 days to follow they never did stop. I always thought you looked like an angel, and now I know it to be true. You entered my life and turned it upside down. I can’t tell you how proud I am that God chose me to be your mommy.

You were a special little lady and it doesn’t matter that I had almost 3 whole months with you, I still wish I would have had more time. More time to tell you that I thought you were absolutely perfect. More time to kiss those sweet cheeks, and whisper in your ear that I love you. More time to snuggle and sing you to sleep. More time to touch your soft skin and rub my finger down your nose. More time to stare at you and tell you how beautiful you were. As much as I wanted it, Jesus decided that He needed more time with you instead. More time to let you truly live, dance and be free. More time to love you like I never could, even on my best day. More time to let you enjoy your brand new body and have no pain at all. I wasn’t able to give you that.

I will miss watching the way Owen would have taught you to throw a ball, or gone out of his way to protect his little sister from anything. I am saddened that I won’t get to see you jump up on your daddy’s lap, and have him tell you that dating was out of the question for at least 30 more years. I would have given anything to watch you walk down an aisle and then one day become a mommy yourself. There are so many things I wanted for you, but God had different plans…greater plans for you.

I love you my sweet baby, and miss you so much it hurts. When you left me I didn’t think I’d be able to breathe again, and here I am rejoicing that you are finally healthy and happy as can be. God is good Molly, and I can’t imagine you being snuggled up in the arms of anyone else. Thank you for the sweet blessing of your life. I will see you again soon, and you can just plan on me covering those precious cheeks with too many kisses to count. In the meantime, have fun dancing with the angels…

I love you baby,
Mommy